i know there are things to be said about Christmas,
but the truth is it was as Christmas always is,
some good, some bad, some readjusting
and what i really want to say here is how i have loved
the preparing this year, carefully selecting her presents
(and realising on Christmas morning that we need to go way
more simple in future)
and Christmas Eve, baking, wrapping, cooking, dancing,
and today, all three of us with our wellies on,
her treasures brought back from the woods
and then napping with her, for two hours.
what i love about it all though, the good and the bad of it all,
is that it reaffirms my strongest feelings
about doing it as simply as possible, about the importance
of noticing, of being still, of allowing
which is a hard thing to do, especially at Christmas,
but I think we learnt from the things we got right and the things
we didn’t and I think we have a great deal of things to do
this year, this coming year and I am eager to go ahead and just
do them all, but number one should really be,
‘take a breath and slow down’.
and I am trying.